You keep messing up and it is beginning to feel like God has had it with you.
For we know that the law is spiritual, but I am fleshly, sold under sin. For I don’t know what I am doing. For I don’t practice what I desire to do; but what I hate, that I do. But if what I don’t desire, that I do, I consent to the law that it is good. Romans 7:14-16
You think that he will not forgive you again because you have been living in sin for such a long time. Some of the things you have done are horrible, you can't forgive yourself, and you don't think God will ever forgive you.
But you feel so broken inside. You don't want your life to be the way it is right now.
People keep telling you that you have been forgiven, but you don't know how to receive this forgiveness because as far as you are concerned, you don't feel forgiven.
Well, most of us have been there.
Some of us have even reached a point where we have asked God to uproot sin from our flesh so that we can stop living in a cycle of sin.
Others have given up on their walk with God. They have settled in their hearts that they don't deserve God's forgiveness because they keep messing up.
Don't give up; do this instead:
Believe and Accept God's Forgiveness
Sounds easy right?
The truth is many people know about God's forgiveness, but they don't accept it.
God's forgiveness is a gift, and what do you do when someone gives you a gift?
You accept it.
We must understand that we didn't earn the gift of forgiveness.
But that is not always the case. Some Christians believe that they have to do something for God so that He can forgive them.
God's forgiveness doesn't work that way. Jesus died on your behalf, so forgiveness is a gift from your heavenly father. If you pay for it, then it stops being a gift.
It is hard for us to comprehend this, but we need to come to the end of ourselves and accept what God is freely giving to us.
Read scriptures about forgiveness, believe they are real, and walk in that forgiveness.
For what the law couldn’t do, in that it was weak through the flesh, God did, sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh and for sin, he condemned sin in the flesh; that the ordinance of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. Romans 8:3-4
Repent Of Your Sins
Okay, this may sound confusing, but yes you need to repent of your sins.
Now, most people think repenting is just confessing your sins, asking for forgiveness, and then that is it. But that is only part of repentance.
You need to change your ways, and that means you should start living a life that aligns with the word of God.
The Webster's dictionary defines repentance as ": to turn from sin "
Now, you cannot do that with your own strength.
Lean on Jesus and follow the leading of the Holy Spirit so that you find true freedom. When you live a life that glorifies God, you show him that you are appreciative of what Jesus did for you on the cross.
My little children, I write these things to you so that you may not sin. If anyone sins, we have a Counselor with the Father, Jesus Christ, the righteous. And he is the atoning sacrifice for our sins, and not for ours only, but also for the whole world. 1 John 2:1-2
If you have been hard on yourself, then it is time for you to give that up and receive God's forgiveness. It doesn't matter what you have done.
God has already forgiven you, so it is not a matter of when he will do it, but when you will receive his forgiveness.
You won't become perfect from then on, but you will start living according to God's grace, which will enable you to become more like Jesus. When you mess up in your walk, don't run away from God, run towards him, and ask him to help you with your weakness.
God's grace doesn't give us a license to sin. It enables us to live fulfilled lives that glorify God.